From home to home, and heart to heart, from one place to another. The warmth and joy of Christmas brings us closer to each other.

~Emily Matthews~



MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
25.12.2009



Have A very Blessed one this year
.kisskisshug.

3rd Anniversary of My Dad
~In Memoriam~

If I could steal one final glance,
one final step,
one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again

"Luther Vandross - Dance with my father"



i miss you like craziie dad

missing all the times that we had together..
our thoughts
our laughs
our fights
our secrets
our escaping time
our silents



Love Love Love
just for you

♥

www.weheartit.com

I ReTweet this on my Twitter


RT @TheLoveStories To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. #lovestories


Exactly represent me now!

Wednesday 09.12.09
00.45 AM

wish i have one

aku ingiiiin semuaaanyaaaaaaaa!!


ingin Lomo camera - Diana
ingin liat Aurora
ingin mawar putih
ingin punya roof top

i'm speechless
but i think this pic can describe the chaos inside
empty dark blur heart

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night.
I miss you like hell.
~Edna St Vincent Millay~

mi manchi
tu me manques
te echo de menos
ik mis je

One Step Closer!

sidang proposal lewat

revisi on the process

tunggu SK turun

research research research



too much thinking

a lot of random thoughts















and my brain TIRED! heart TIRED! the whole body TIRED!

2 days more... 40 hours left...


hmmm.. actually gw sendiri gak ngitungin sih brp jam lagi...
itu yg ngitungin LIE Darmawan Chandra...
*rajin amat kau nak!*

dan tepatnya 2 hari (kira2 40 jam) menuju seminar proposal skripsi!!
aaaargh....... jeng jeng jeng!!!



FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS...
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS...
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS...

if you said

"Love is not something to declare
but you have to feel it when you need to know"


then i send you this feeling through my silence..


........

Dua Sisi Antrian Buku...


untuk mengisi waktu luang di sela-sela waktu berpikir
gw ngumpulin buku-buku yang udah pada ngantri dibuka lembarannya

seperti dua sisi mata uang
antrian buku gw juga punya dua sisi


Buku - buku INGIN dibaca

dan


Buku - buku WAJIB baca

whooooaaaa.......
baru sadar antrian udah numpuk puk puk!


baca yg mana dulu yah?!
INGIN atau WAJIB

white
white
white
white
white
white
white



i want something Bright...
coz i'm tired being a GREY
and of course don't want it BLACK...


I JUST WANT IT WHITE !!

it's beyond word...

Now i know the answer...


"it's simple... i'll keep fallin and stay rite here waiting"


karena sedang merasa...
BAHAGIA itu enak
walau entah apa yang akan terjadi setelahnya..
sakit ataukah bahagia lagi

i just wanna keep it save with me now..
coz i'm ultra HAPPY!

PS: tanpa maksud untuk menjadi selfish... please don't make me wait to looong dear!!
i'm a bit insecure...

i'm addicted to this song.. lyric and melody.... Love it ♥

Cinta Pertama dan Terakhir

by Sherina Munaf

sebelumnya tak ada yang mampu
mengajakku untuk bertahan
di kala sedih
sebelumnya ku ikat hatiku
hanya untuk aku seorang
sekarang kau di sini hilang rasanya
semua bimbang tangis kesepian

reff:
kau buat aku bertanya
kau buat aku mencari
tentang rasa ini
aku tak mengerti
akankah sama jadinya
bila bukan kamu
lalu senyummu menyadarkanku
kau cinta pertama dan terakhirku

sebelumnya tak mudah bagiku
tertawa sendiri di kehidupan
yang kelam ini

sebelumnya rasanya tak perlu
membagi kisahku saat ada yang mengerti
sekarang kau di sini hilang rasanya
semua bimbang tangis kesepian

repeat reff

bila suatu saat kau harus pergi
jangan paksa aku tuk cari yang lebih baik
karena senyummu menyadarkanku
kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhirku

The AtmostFear @FX
26.09.09
(nyeeez!)

Daniel's 22nd Birthday
01.10.09

me with my green Batik on Batik Day
02.10.09

RANDOOOOM things during Holiday

Saturday 19.09.09
welcoming Andin

Monday 21.09.09
Segarra fever with the whole Marsha's Family

Tuesday 22.09.09
Final Destination (FX) and Pizza-ing (Sarinah) with Anggun

wooohooo !!

ekspresi normal mo difoto

Wednesday 23.09.09
last meet up with Lisa (in the middle)

kesimpulan:
selama libur kerjaannya hanya
NGUMPUL - NGUMPUL

and again...

i feel

LONELY

.Kangen.

satu-satunya perasaan
yang membuat hati bersayap
dan merasa mampu terbang..

walaupun tak yakin
apakah disana ada sepetak lahan
untuk mendarat...

atau
apakah seseorang disana memberi ijin
untuk mendaratkan hati yang sudah terlanjur bersayap ini..


this is my Heart's Wing
would you accept it ?

one question in my head...

"What would you do if you think you fallin love with someone you shouldn't ?!"

yap... pertanyaan ini tadinya hanya muncul sekelebat tanpa ada kelanjutan pemikiran...
lalu suatu saat sejak membaca blog seorang sahabat, pertanyaan ini mulai merajai otak !!
i mean i think about it almost all the time...

WHY??
because i'm in the middle of it now...

Dan yang pasti Jawabannya susaaaaaah bukan main
karena sampai sekarang, i have no idea what to answer...

Susah yah kalo sudah mulai ada rasa sayang ??!

Logika bilang Tidak
tetapi...
Hati bilang Mungkin Iya... haha :D
(che jangan nekad deh, u know the risk is too BIG) !!

Hati atau Logika ??!!
pilihan yang sulit dan membuat Streeesssss...
i just know that i do care... but the rest is still grey...

sudah pasrah dan ikhlas..
coz i believe that everything happens for a reason...

jadi mari kita jalani saja dulu yang ada....
masalah akhir critanya akan seperti apa, serahkan saja pada waktu
karena hanya waktu yang bisa menjawab...

welcoming Lisa - the German girl on Monday 24 August 2009


it was a great Monday... hehe spent time with old bestfriend... :)

janjian dari jam 11-an di Starbuck Plaza Indonesia.... then we moving to Grand Indonesia... walking around and looking for lunch... decided to eat SUSHI at Sushi Groove... nyuum :)

we ordered 4 kind of sushi : Princess Roll, Chicken Teriyaki Roll, Krakatau Roll and one forgot (no picture)... hehe....

after full of sushi, kita ngiter2 keliling GI sambil terus ngobrol... dan dapetlah sebuah white tops bagus, kita beli kembaran akhirnya... (asiik!!)
stelah shopping yg tak direncanakan itu, tiba2 lisa ngajak nonton "The Proposal"... (bnr2 penuh keputusan spontan) haha... ok then we watched... suka filmnya krn memang udah pengen nonton juga...

abis nonton... it's time to go home.... haha..... capee tapi Happy berat... ♥

after spending many many times for thinking and self talking,

now the grey become brighter
coz there is a light.....

and
i feel

RELIEVED

siapa aku ini ??
apa aku ??
apa posisiku ??
berapa lama ku harus menunggu ??
kita skarang mengarah kemana ??

itu adalah pertanyaan - pertanyaan yg setiap saat mondar mandir di lintasan pikiranku seminggu terakhir ini..... pertanyaan yg muncul karena udah gak tau mau expect apa... atau lebih tepatnya GAK BRANI expect apa-apa... tapi tetep ingin sebuah bentuk kepastian...

berasa bodoh aja kalo sampe jatuh ke lubang yg sama dua kali.... i learn a lot from the last... so for this time, expect less is the best thing that i can do...

now... i plan to ask first... i will... i will... i'll ask for the statement....
(mungkin ini akan membuat semua lebih jelas, walo gak tau akan kaya apa jadinya)

hheeemppphff......
seems like i need a lot of oxygen and long long breathing for this GALAU moment...

i don't know what to expect, but i know that i like your existence in my life now.

*back to thinking mode : ON*

..i left a piece of my heart in BALI..

my second trip to Bali this year is soooooo muuuuuch FUN....
really enjoying the atmosphere there... *beautifuuul !!*

makan nasi pedes kuta sampe megap-megap saking pedesnya...
berjemur di pantai sampe belang dan legam...
berwisata kuliner sepanjang hari sampe gembul, mulai dari ayam taliwang, ayam betutu, babi guling, segala macem seafood, sampe lasagna di warung Italia-Seminyak...
berenang malem2 di hotel...
menikmati indahnya sunset di pinggir pantai....
jalan2 malem di Kuta, Legian n Seminyak...
belanja di pasar sukowati...
menjelajah Ubud demi sesuap Bebek Bengil yg super duper enak berat dengan porsi jumbo (apalagi menu Pork Ribs nya *sslluurps* ditambah pemandangan sawah) makdnyuuuz!!
Rafting di Telaga Waja yg super seruuu tapi bikin satu badan pegel...
dan ikut one day cruise ke Nusa Lembongan.... (disana skaligus bisa snorkling *karangnya baguuuus dan airnya super bersiiih*, banana boat sepanjang hari dan Kayaking yg dayungnya berat) ini bikin kulit sun burn!!......

How i love it ♥

Baru sempet menulis blog lagi.... stelah seminggu-an lebih ga ngecek blog... hehehe

hmm...... crita apa dulu yah yg terlewat?? ok let's see....

i think.... let me tell my 21st bday story...
actually nothing special... hanya pertambahan umur, yang berarti juga pertambahan tanggung jawab !! hahahaha....

ini 5 first person who said happy birthday to me:
1: Surya (chat on YM,webcam n yahoo call)
2: Deasy (sms)
3: Anggun (sms)
4: mom (face to face)
5: Susan (sms)

and THENKIUUUUUUUUUU buat smua yg udah ngucapin lewat telpon, sms, facebook and twitter... dan smua yg tidak bisa disebutkan namanya satu persatu krn super super banyak bgt..... !! hehehe...

thx very much... arigatou... merci beaucoup...
thx for all the wishes guys... Gbu too always !!
loooooovveeeee u all sooo daaaaamn muuuuuuch.....................
*kiss kiss and Big Hug*

oke then this is what i did on my bday:
morning gym with susan and bonita... then ketemuan ma romy and raisa (cousin) buat makan sushi di Hatchi Hatchi Taman Anggrek... *Sluuuurps*
acara mkn2 ini sbnrnya just for very close best friends but minus susan ndut yg lg kerja, deasy & anggun (nanti ada sesi sndiri), aree yg di jepang n surya yg msh di tpt klien....

abiiis makan n foto2 pastinya, kita karoke dadakan di inul.... yah mayan melepas stres bosan juga.... hahahaha..... gokil deh ampe bikin video sgala tuh pas karoke.... mantabz..!!

trus sore2..... dapet home-made cake dari tmen2 SD.... indri, meisa, marcel and romy (again!) hahaha........... kita makan2 di rumah akhirnya sambil foto2.... thx guys...!! and also thx to marcel's mom who made this yummmy cake!!

SENANGNYA hari ini......!! what a beautiful day.......

just wish everything better for this new age....
work harder and play harder... !!

DAHSYAT-nya 10 JULI 2009...

setelah lama tak berjumpa akhirnya hari ini bisa gathering bareng my girls... TigerliciouZ... dalam rangka traktiran ultahnya anggun 9 Juli 2009 kmrn... :)

super duper excited... karena sudah banyak cerita menunggu untuk di bagi... !!

oke... kenapa DAHSYAT?? karena ada bbrp kejadian tak terlupakan....

1. Cici and Anggun yg biasanya berambut panjang,, hari ini pada potong rambut jadi sependek gw *even LEBIH PENDEK!!*
anggun malah udah mirip cowo... hahaha.... sampe ga ngenalin deh... look at this pic.... tigerliciouz with short hair... haha....

Happy Birthday Anggun !!

2. Gw dan anggun bahagia karena akhirnya kita makan SOP KAKI KAMBING juga setelah sekian lama ga ketemu makanan itu... hahaha..... kita udah seneng begitu liat sop dan sate kambingnya terhidang di meja... !! *lebai*
plus ditraktir, jadi tambah nikmat deh... karena kita makan di warung milik nyokapnya anggun... hahaha....... service memuaskan... heempf... :))

3. Karena mobil2 jakarta yg susah bener buat kasih jln ke org lain... alhasil utk PERTAMA kalinya... gw DITILANG *aaaaargh* !!!! gokiiil dah......... akhirnya gw yg kebawa panik buru2 pasang muka memelas waktu dimintain surat2 dan langsung mikir pake jln damai aja biar ga ribet.. hati udah dag dig dug DUEEER !! *huuff*
setelah dilepas... kita bertiga malah ketawa ngakak dan gw baru sadar knp ga nyoba tilang aja yah...trus ikut sidang... hahaha.............. benar2 tak terlupakan..

4. The last but not least...
setelah nganter cici and anggun ke rmh masing-masing.... Thx GOD jalanan ga begitu macet dan terbilang lancar utk ukuran hari jumat... tp begitu sampe jembatan Tomang emang aga rame sih..dan dengan dahsyatnya terjadilah tabrakan 2 motor TEPAT di dpn mobil gw !!! tuh 2 org pake berantem2 dulu lagi... aduuuhdduuuu..........


WHAT A DAY !!!
lots of laugh... lots of stories and lots of memories to remember....

from the book of Zara Zettira ZR - called every Silence has a Story.. this is the last paragraph that i interested in...

"...and life will be so much easier if only we can all surrender in the present and move with the flow to wherever 'now' is taking us and accept whatever 'now' is giving us"

menikmati masa ini... hari ini.. jam ini... dan detik ini...

but without forgetting my past....
karena masa lalu lah yg membawa kita ke saat sekarang
and always hoping for the future..
karena masa depan yang dapat membuat manusia terus maju
(that's what i thought about past, present and future)

sooo.... let's enjoy our NOW time people !!

"i love my mother as the trees love water and sunshine - she helps me grow, prosper and reach great heights"
-Adabella Radici-

i love you the most mom..

Happy Birthday !!

wish u all the best in everything (happiness, good work and good health) and
may God bless u always...

have a blast one !!




my mother's gift : 5 roses.. eyeshadow maybelline and japan original cheesecake from miki ojisan no mise.... hopefully that would be great !!

"you may say that i'm a dreamer, but i'm not the only one"
.John Lennon.

Elementary Reunion Dinner

yes.... can't wait for tomorrow....

My Elementary Reunion Dinner will be held on:

date : July 4th,2009
Time : 06.00 PM
Place : Samudra Seafood Lt.4, Taman Anggrek Mall (All u can eat)
dress code : just be you...

PS:
bring old photos please !! haha... for remembering how cute we were...

semoga smua lancar dan sesuai rencana...
a bit worry..tentang beberapa org yg belum yakin bisa dtg atau ngga...
well let's see...

Need a HUG... !!

*ingin peluk sangat* hukz.... anyone ?

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"
-Maria Robinson-

one step at a time.... there's no need to rush...
it's like learning to fly or falling in love...
it's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen..
that we find the reason why....
one step at a time...


by Jordin Sparks

Today's culinary trip in TEBET !!

1. ITC Kuningan n Mall Ambasador
shopping in here... haha.....
i got black shawl and grey cardigan *udah pengen lama bgt akhirnya nemu juga di toko yg namanya 'why not'* pheew
this is the black shawl..

2. Nasi Bebek Ginyo
having lunch... my menu was nasi uduk, bebek kremes, tempe goreng, lalapan and es teh tawar...*let's eat!!*


3. toko2 di sepanjang jln itu.... Bloop, Endorse, lockers, black orange and etc...
just looking around... *shopping mood had gone after lunch* haha...

4. Burger and Grill
take away for dinner at home... American classic burger with potato chips for me...


5. Cheese cake factory
indri lg mupeng ice cream nya... jadi kita moving kesana skalian nongkrong before go home...
i choose oreo ice cream [my fav] just 1 scoop.. but indri makan yg 500 liter saking mupengnya hahaha.... *ssluuurps*


and the culinary trip is done... !! full of food....

On the way home....
lets fight for the traffic jam.... it must be super duper crowded on Friday at 6 PM...
kakiii kiri pegel mampuuus injek kopling dari Tebet !!!! MACET !! *Geez*

hahaha .... overall hari ini semua puas.... can't wait for the next trip girls...

This is the song's lyric that reflected my life lately..
[especially for anggun and deasy... ini lagu kita bangeeet !! haha... ]
enjoy people..

Mereka bilang aku pemilih dan kesepian
Terlalu keras menjalani hidup
Beribu nasehat dan petuah yang diberikan
Berharap hidupku bahagia

Aku baik-baik saja
Menikmati hidup yang aku punya
Hidupku sangat sempurna
I’m single and very happy

Mengejar mimpi-mimpi indah
Bebas lakukan yang aku suka
Berteman dengan siapa saja
I’m single and very happy

Mereka bilang sudah saatnya karena usia
Untuk mencari sang kekasih hati
Tapi ku yakin akan datang pasangan jiwaku
Pada waktu dan cara yang indah

I’m single and very happy

Waktu terus berjalan
Tak bisa ku hentikan
Ku inginkan yang terbaik untukku

by Oppie Andaresta - Single and Happy

Planning for holiday project :

1. Reunion Dinner for elementary school
mendadak memutuskan utk menjadi EO for this reunion dinner karena banyaknya request dari tmn2 SD yg udah kangeeen mau ketemuan.... so lets plan it !!

date: 4 or 11 of JULY 2009
place: Taman Anggrek Mall - Fish n Co or Samudra Suki *buffet*
Time: Dinner time - 07.00 PM

now i'm waiting for people's confirmation.... and next
i have to make the fixed invitation for all....wait for that friends !!

2.Garage sale
biar kamar ga penuh plus adding budget for holiday.... !!
still on the way.... hihi...

Addicted to Something.. !!
Hhmmppff........

Sebait lirik penuh inspirasi untukku dalam kesendirian...


I've got a right to be wrong
My mistakes will make me strong
I'm stepping out into the great unknown
I'm feeling wings though I've never flown
i`ve got a mind of my own
I'm flesh and blood to the bone
I'm not made of stone
Got a right to be wrong
So just leave me alone...

Right to be Wrong by Joss Stone


*love the melody and love the lyric*

. W . A . I . T . I . N . G .

just HAPPY.............. !!

decided not listened to that "ramal-ramal" thing.......
*anggep lalu saja...sekedar hiburan semata* hohooo.........

no matter what happen in front of me...
i'm just living my life to the fullest.. !!

Let it flow... and take it easy.....

Badly needs time ALONE please !!!
LONER mode on.....

*pikiran sedang terpengaruh oleh ramalan yang seharusnya tak kudengar*

aaaarrgh........... kepikiran terus !! gawat..... gawat..... i become crazy with that thoughts......

oooh Geez... get out from my mind.... !!

This is... TIGERLICIOUZ....
















Anggun... Cheche *Grace*... Cici *Deasy*

my best friend forever.... hopefully till the end of our life...
we are Sanurian and love marching band world...

this Busy Saturday... having fun with Tigerliciouz...
moving from one place to another... !! all day long...

11.00 AM
Going to JCC... pameran komputer... mau beli notebook...
jemput anggun and cici di depan Happy Day - Pecenongan...

Senayan rame parah... super crowded with people... !! *eeerggh*

tapi karena masih ragu n takut terburu2 jadi ga sreg...
so i decided to think about it at home and will be back tomorrow morning with the right decision....

01.15 PM
Moving to Sanur...for marching band weekly exercise...
chit chat ama pelatih dan taking pics... *tetep narcist* haha....

04.30 PM
moving again...and going to church... 'kemakmuran'...

06.15 PM
moving to Pecenongan for having dinner.... *a light dinner* because the menu are just..

es campur *shared*
roti bakar kornet keju *cici*
indomie telor kornet keju *anggun*
indomie goreng telor *me*
and mineral water.... *each*

after full of food... and taking pics again...

we ready to go home... *not that ready sih anyway*

07.45 PM
cici arrived home... *Apartment Ancol*

08.15 PM
Anggun arrived home... *Pecenongan*

08.35 PM
finally i'm arrived.... haha.....

*can't wait till next week... for our Gathering..*

ohiya forget.....

this is INDRI...

all EXAM is DONE... !!
and its time to have FUN because its....


....HOLIDAY....

*yipiiiiie*

stop thinking of all of this stuff... literature and friends...

yang telah membuat kamar berantakan... hehehe.....
and
lets HANG OUT...

hari ini wisata kuliner ke Puri... Tepatnya Pan&Cook Puri...
*pancake...i'm coming..*
akhirnya going with Indri (my bestfriend since elementary)
and we order this for the first round..

my order: cheese chocolate pancake
indri's order: smoked beef pancake

karena kami lapar...and the portion is not enough...
so...lets order for the second round....
Lasagna Beef... *tapi yg ini kita shared lho* hahaha...
ohiya ga sempet difoto yg masih utuh... jadi cuma ada foto yg tinggal sepotong ajah...

the last part of our Lasagna Beef.... sebelum kami babat habis.. !
hihi.....

after that.... kenyang....kenyang...kenyang...
tapi SENANG....

*can't wait for the next culinary trip*

oh i remembering something...
just wanna say that...

i'm jealous with someone who has a Silent Brass System for his Trumpet...
enaknya bisa denger suara alat sendiri tanpa mengganggu orang lain di tengah malam...

*wish i have one..*

one more left for final exam...
after that.....

..HOLIDAY....

*yipiiie*

tapi udah jam segini belum mule belajar... hahaha
*Lazy mode on* !!

Today
i'm having lunch with david n Caroline...danil n Jes...randy n ranies...Gunz... and Edhu...
ditraktir danil dlm rangka dia untung saham.... hehe...
*tadinya udah planning mau di Bandar Jakarta tp ga jadi2*

at The Buffet Citraland... all u can eat !!

lots of laugh...lots of jokes... lots of rumours...*what a day !!*
udah lama ga ngumpul lunch gini....

but after that....
my stomach is full of Food... and my head start spinning..
*Kekenyangan !!*
gembul..gembul..gembul..

wanna sing a 'Happy Birthday' song for someone at 12 AM by phone....
but it didn't work... because he fall asleep (i guess) ...
*gagal!!*

so....
Happy Birthday to You... have a blast one... !!

just texting it on sms and leave an offline messages on YM....

Attacked by a lot of thoughts...


*think...think...think*
start the habit of thinking too much.. !!

Saturday Night with nothing to do....
just sit in front of the computer for
checking email...
looking around in Facebook...
tweeting and
updating the blog...

after that

hmmm....
planning to read the books...
called "you need a Good Lawyer to set you free from the jail of your heart"
by Zara Zettira ZR and friends

and
watching TV...

*Boredom*

Free Friday Morning...

i've got this quote...

God took the strength of a mountain,
The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,
and He made my Dad out of those ingredients…
-Author unknown-


miss him so much *geez

done for this week... the next exam is on Monday...
so... i'm ready to enjoy the weekend !!!

wanna sleep revenge... watching DVD... reading books...
doing RPM class n yoga at the Gym...
and just relaxing...

Hari ini... ujian 3 mata kuliah...

PLKH 2 - Perdata (simulasi sidang)
PTUN - open book
Perbankan - open book..

tapi yang paling seru ujian PERTAMA... SIMULASI SIDANG PERDATA... karena
dresscode : formal...
boys : kemeja n dasi
girl : blazer

trus mau di shoot.... hihi beneran kaya akting... pake skenario juga soalnya...
hehe...

ohiya... i'm in the second group and the members are :
The judges are
Christian Jaya
suharno
Julia Chritine

Kuasa Hukum Penggugat
Steven
Suspensi

Kuasa Hukum tergugat
Liedaramawan Chandra (best partner)
Grace Monika R a.k.a ME

panitera
Rina
Agung

walaupun kita kelompok Majelis I tapi maju yang pertama lho...
simulasi sidang Babak I - Babak IV (pemeriksaan alat bukti tertulis)
the court going well as we practised before...
*lEGA*

for remembering this moment..we taking a lot of pics... and here they are...



this is me with Liedarmawan Chandra *the best partner* as Kuasa Hukum Tergugat..



the second group *Kelompok Majelis Hakim II*



Sebelum Sidang..




Full Team *majelis I and Majelis II*



afterall..
semua senang dan semua narcis...
thanx for the kindness of our lecturer Bpk I Made... *love u deh pak..*