Susah yah kalo sudah mulai ada rasa sayang ??!

Logika bilang Tidak
tetapi...
Hati bilang Mungkin Iya... haha :D
(che jangan nekad deh, u know the risk is too BIG) !!

Hati atau Logika ??!!
pilihan yang sulit dan membuat Streeesssss...
i just know that i do care... but the rest is still grey...

sudah pasrah dan ikhlas..
coz i believe that everything happens for a reason...

jadi mari kita jalani saja dulu yang ada....
masalah akhir critanya akan seperti apa, serahkan saja pada waktu
karena hanya waktu yang bisa menjawab...

welcoming Lisa - the German girl on Monday 24 August 2009


it was a great Monday... hehe spent time with old bestfriend... :)

janjian dari jam 11-an di Starbuck Plaza Indonesia.... then we moving to Grand Indonesia... walking around and looking for lunch... decided to eat SUSHI at Sushi Groove... nyuum :)

we ordered 4 kind of sushi : Princess Roll, Chicken Teriyaki Roll, Krakatau Roll and one forgot (no picture)... hehe....

after full of sushi, kita ngiter2 keliling GI sambil terus ngobrol... dan dapetlah sebuah white tops bagus, kita beli kembaran akhirnya... (asiik!!)
stelah shopping yg tak direncanakan itu, tiba2 lisa ngajak nonton "The Proposal"... (bnr2 penuh keputusan spontan) haha... ok then we watched... suka filmnya krn memang udah pengen nonton juga...

abis nonton... it's time to go home.... haha..... capee tapi Happy berat... ♥

after spending many many times for thinking and self talking,

now the grey become brighter
coz there is a light.....

and
i feel

RELIEVED

siapa aku ini ??
apa aku ??
apa posisiku ??
berapa lama ku harus menunggu ??
kita skarang mengarah kemana ??

itu adalah pertanyaan - pertanyaan yg setiap saat mondar mandir di lintasan pikiranku seminggu terakhir ini..... pertanyaan yg muncul karena udah gak tau mau expect apa... atau lebih tepatnya GAK BRANI expect apa-apa... tapi tetep ingin sebuah bentuk kepastian...

berasa bodoh aja kalo sampe jatuh ke lubang yg sama dua kali.... i learn a lot from the last... so for this time, expect less is the best thing that i can do...

now... i plan to ask first... i will... i will... i'll ask for the statement....
(mungkin ini akan membuat semua lebih jelas, walo gak tau akan kaya apa jadinya)

hheeemppphff......
seems like i need a lot of oxygen and long long breathing for this GALAU moment...

i don't know what to expect, but i know that i like your existence in my life now.

*back to thinking mode : ON*

..i left a piece of my heart in BALI..

my second trip to Bali this year is soooooo muuuuuch FUN....
really enjoying the atmosphere there... *beautifuuul !!*

makan nasi pedes kuta sampe megap-megap saking pedesnya...
berjemur di pantai sampe belang dan legam...
berwisata kuliner sepanjang hari sampe gembul, mulai dari ayam taliwang, ayam betutu, babi guling, segala macem seafood, sampe lasagna di warung Italia-Seminyak...
berenang malem2 di hotel...
menikmati indahnya sunset di pinggir pantai....
jalan2 malem di Kuta, Legian n Seminyak...
belanja di pasar sukowati...
menjelajah Ubud demi sesuap Bebek Bengil yg super duper enak berat dengan porsi jumbo (apalagi menu Pork Ribs nya *sslluurps* ditambah pemandangan sawah) makdnyuuuz!!
Rafting di Telaga Waja yg super seruuu tapi bikin satu badan pegel...
dan ikut one day cruise ke Nusa Lembongan.... (disana skaligus bisa snorkling *karangnya baguuuus dan airnya super bersiiih*, banana boat sepanjang hari dan Kayaking yg dayungnya berat) ini bikin kulit sun burn!!......

How i love it ♥

Baru sempet menulis blog lagi.... stelah seminggu-an lebih ga ngecek blog... hehehe

hmm...... crita apa dulu yah yg terlewat?? ok let's see....

i think.... let me tell my 21st bday story...
actually nothing special... hanya pertambahan umur, yang berarti juga pertambahan tanggung jawab !! hahahaha....

ini 5 first person who said happy birthday to me:
1: Surya (chat on YM,webcam n yahoo call)
2: Deasy (sms)
3: Anggun (sms)
4: mom (face to face)
5: Susan (sms)

and THENKIUUUUUUUUUU buat smua yg udah ngucapin lewat telpon, sms, facebook and twitter... dan smua yg tidak bisa disebutkan namanya satu persatu krn super super banyak bgt..... !! hehehe...

thx very much... arigatou... merci beaucoup...
thx for all the wishes guys... Gbu too always !!
loooooovveeeee u all sooo daaaaamn muuuuuuch.....................
*kiss kiss and Big Hug*

oke then this is what i did on my bday:
morning gym with susan and bonita... then ketemuan ma romy and raisa (cousin) buat makan sushi di Hatchi Hatchi Taman Anggrek... *Sluuuurps*
acara mkn2 ini sbnrnya just for very close best friends but minus susan ndut yg lg kerja, deasy & anggun (nanti ada sesi sndiri), aree yg di jepang n surya yg msh di tpt klien....

abiiis makan n foto2 pastinya, kita karoke dadakan di inul.... yah mayan melepas stres bosan juga.... hahahaha..... gokil deh ampe bikin video sgala tuh pas karoke.... mantabz..!!

trus sore2..... dapet home-made cake dari tmen2 SD.... indri, meisa, marcel and romy (again!) hahaha........... kita makan2 di rumah akhirnya sambil foto2.... thx guys...!! and also thx to marcel's mom who made this yummmy cake!!

SENANGNYA hari ini......!! what a beautiful day.......

just wish everything better for this new age....
work harder and play harder... !!